Somebody slipped me a poison apple.
I woke up on the bus today. But waking up isn't the correct word because I wasn't asleep.
...This is really surreal, but it was just like, all of a sudden, I resumed as if somebody had hit the pause button on my life, and then taken it off.
I don't remember anything from the last five or six days of my life. I had no idea where I was or where I was coming from. I had my camera around my neck and my Ipod was in. I looked around in a panic to find my friend Ryan sitting across from me. I asked him what I was doing there and he looked at me like I was insane. I freaked the hell out. I can't even describe what was going through my head because it was so ridiculous. A week of my life, gone. I need to find out what I did...and why I can't remember it.
We were downtown taking pictures, by the way. Ryan didn't see me on any other day this week. I told my Parents and they said I've been acting normally, although I went out a few times and have been couped up in my room a little more than usual.
I don't remember making my last three or four blog posts...I don't know what's up with the video, especially.
I've gotta go to the doctor. I think something might be wrong with my brain.
Worried.
Thursday, September 30, 2010
Saturday, September 25, 2010
My Head Hurts
My brother is being really unbearable today, and I have a headache. I typed out a longer entry for this but my computer blanked out and I lost it...Isn't blogspot supposed to save this stuff?
Whatever.
I feel terrible.
Whatever.
I feel terrible.
Friday, September 24, 2010
Girls
Trying to get into a girl's life and date her or whatever is way harder than it should be.
It SEEMS like with both share an interest in each other.
So WHY DO I HAVE TO DEAL WITH ALL THE STRESS AND LEGWORK!?
She just gets to sit there and wait!
I'd kill to just have to wait to have someone sweep me off my feet.
But nope, gotta come up with all these stupid plans.
AAARGH.
It'll be worth it though.
I hope.
Well if it works out, definately.
If not well,
I'll be upset! no plz
I'm going downtown next thursday to take pictures...That day is going to be very important.
Nothing go wrong plz.
It SEEMS like with both share an interest in each other.
So WHY DO I HAVE TO DEAL WITH ALL THE STRESS AND LEGWORK!?
She just gets to sit there and wait!
I'd kill to just have to wait to have someone sweep me off my feet.
But nope, gotta come up with all these stupid plans.
AAARGH.
It'll be worth it though.
I hope.
Well if it works out, definately.
If not well,
I'll be upset! no plz
I'm going downtown next thursday to take pictures...That day is going to be very important.
Nothing go wrong plz.
Wednesday, September 22, 2010
Not So Scary
Yeah, okay, creepy head and shoulders from my nightmare shows up in a photo I took.
Yeah right. Yeah right! Coincidences...I developed the same photo again earlier today, and I got the same thing. So, it's probably just George Washington possessing my quarters or something. As if.
And I looked up what I could remember from me dreams for interpretations...The two most vivid dreams were the ones with the Chimera and the TV. I looked up static on a TV as well as the Chimera, and both seem to represent having a sense of confusion in your life.
Which...I guess I've been lately...It's something to think about!
I wish I could get my scanner working! AAARGH.
I'm gonna go play some Metroid Fusion and head to sleep. See ya round! (The two of you ;p)
Yeah right. Yeah right! Coincidences...I developed the same photo again earlier today, and I got the same thing. So, it's probably just George Washington possessing my quarters or something. As if.
And I looked up what I could remember from me dreams for interpretations...The two most vivid dreams were the ones with the Chimera and the TV. I looked up static on a TV as well as the Chimera, and both seem to represent having a sense of confusion in your life.
Which...I guess I've been lately...It's something to think about!
I wish I could get my scanner working! AAARGH.
I'm gonna go play some Metroid Fusion and head to sleep. See ya round! (The two of you ;p)
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
Figure
Exactly what I saw on the television in the dream.
Those lit up quarters make it up. I can remember it clearly now.
I didn't have time to install the drivers for my new scanner, so I just took a picture of the photo I developed in the dark room earlier today with my camera phone...excuse the bad quality but...this is what came out.
it's probably nothing, and Maybe i'm just imagining this, or...maybe i'm some sort of prophetic dreamer... Feels like deja vu almost. i don't even know.
Irked.
That's all I can say I am right now.
Those lit up quarters make it up. I can remember it clearly now.
I didn't have time to install the drivers for my new scanner, so I just took a picture of the photo I developed in the dark room earlier today with my camera phone...excuse the bad quality but...this is what came out.
Irked.
That's all I can say I am right now.
Monday, September 20, 2010
Rapid Eye Movement -- Five Times Over
Last night I went to bed at 12:34AM
I woke up an hour later around 1:45. I had a dream. It was weird. I went back to sleep.
I woke up again at 2:30, another dream, I went back to sleep.
Once again I awoke, this time at 3:46. I remember the time exactly because I grabbed my phone immediately after I stopped my gasps of horror. (The dream wasn't all that scary, it just...bothered me tothe core.) After cradling myself with all the lights on for twenty minutes, I managed to get back to sleep and woke up AGAIN with another dream. 5:06. Back to bed, another dream.
I didn't feel like I got any sleep at all. My body never left REM sleep. My eyes must have been moving all night. And what's funny, is I remember ALL OF THEM PERFECTLY. If that isn't unusual I don't know what is.
It was probably just a crazy coincidence, but...I don't know, maybe it was something I ate?
Dream 1: I got a 32 on my act. But then it turned out that was just my missle count in Metroid. I actually got a twelve. My dad slapped me. (Yeah idkwtf)
Dream 2: I couldn't finish eating all of my ice so I gave some to Ryan (Yeah, also my last name, how cool.) He started talking about his engineering program at Perry University. Then we went to the amusement park and I lost my cotton candy. I went to a club at school, it was in an abandoned warehouse, Mr S. had a saw for a hand and Ryan and Lauren were talking about something by a curtain. Then I went to my friend's house and couldnt find my shoes. (Yeah idkwtf once more.)
Dream 3: In a crowded room of people. Classmates, I think. We were watching tv on an old, tube tv. Except it was hung on the wall all of a sudden. And what was on the screen was a bunch of street corners or something, and then the tv fell off the wall in slow motion, as if waitless. Some big black bar almost hit me, and then the tv hit me and got all staticy. It was crushing me. I tried to push it back up but it was really heavy. A figure appeared in the static and I started bugging out badly. I started to push it back up and pictures started flashing on the Tv. Girl's faces. A few of them were cartoon girls, and a few were real. I felt a click in my neck and a snapping sound and I woke up. I had no idea what to make of it. But it bothered me.
Dream 4: I found a deck of cards. All of a sudden my dog was HUGE. That's all, really.
Dream 5: I went to an anime conventoin with my friend, and then we were going to college for no reason. And she was driving me around in her car and I had a camera. We saw a chimera and I got out of the car to take a picture. It was tiny but after I took some shots it came after me. We tried to get back in the car but it was surrounded with laundry...yeah.
God, one of the weirdest nights of my life.
Feeling shaken, not stirred.
I woke up an hour later around 1:45. I had a dream. It was weird. I went back to sleep.
I woke up again at 2:30, another dream, I went back to sleep.
Once again I awoke, this time at 3:46. I remember the time exactly because I grabbed my phone immediately after I stopped my gasps of horror. (The dream wasn't all that scary, it just...bothered me tothe core.) After cradling myself with all the lights on for twenty minutes, I managed to get back to sleep and woke up AGAIN with another dream. 5:06. Back to bed, another dream.
I didn't feel like I got any sleep at all. My body never left REM sleep. My eyes must have been moving all night. And what's funny, is I remember ALL OF THEM PERFECTLY. If that isn't unusual I don't know what is.
It was probably just a crazy coincidence, but...I don't know, maybe it was something I ate?
Dream 1: I got a 32 on my act. But then it turned out that was just my missle count in Metroid. I actually got a twelve. My dad slapped me. (Yeah idkwtf)
Dream 2: I couldn't finish eating all of my ice so I gave some to Ryan (Yeah, also my last name, how cool.) He started talking about his engineering program at Perry University. Then we went to the amusement park and I lost my cotton candy. I went to a club at school, it was in an abandoned warehouse, Mr S. had a saw for a hand and Ryan and Lauren were talking about something by a curtain. Then I went to my friend's house and couldnt find my shoes. (Yeah idkwtf once more.)
Dream 3: In a crowded room of people. Classmates, I think. We were watching tv on an old, tube tv. Except it was hung on the wall all of a sudden. And what was on the screen was a bunch of street corners or something, and then the tv fell off the wall in slow motion, as if waitless. Some big black bar almost hit me, and then the tv hit me and got all staticy. It was crushing me. I tried to push it back up but it was really heavy. A figure appeared in the static and I started bugging out badly. I started to push it back up and pictures started flashing on the Tv. Girl's faces. A few of them were cartoon girls, and a few were real. I felt a click in my neck and a snapping sound and I woke up. I had no idea what to make of it. But it bothered me.
Dream 4: I found a deck of cards. All of a sudden my dog was HUGE. That's all, really.
Dream 5: I went to an anime conventoin with my friend, and then we were going to college for no reason. And she was driving me around in her car and I had a camera. We saw a chimera and I got out of the car to take a picture. It was tiny but after I took some shots it came after me. We tried to get back in the car but it was surrounded with laundry...yeah.
God, one of the weirdest nights of my life.
Feeling shaken, not stirred.
Jessica
Let me tell you guys a story. This blog IS for venting thoughts, right?
It's not?
Whatever.
A long time ago, when I was in grade school, I had this friend named Jessica. We weren't great friends by any means, we just shared all of the same [nerdy] interests. We shared [nerdy] writing, and she taught me how to roleplay. Our relationships pretty much existed only online. (Though we would dance at school sockhops and pal around)
But all that we had in common really made me feel close to her. We'd stay up all night talking with eachother just about whatever, whether it be our crushes or video games or whatever.
Of course good things don't last forever, we went to different highschools and stopped talking...We'd chat every now and then, but nothing too deep.
Until today! She just randomly called me and we started talking about this and that. Telling eachother how we've been. She's still an aspiring writer, and I told her all about my photography. Her Dad is a proffesional photographer! Who knew? Come to think of it I never knew anything about her Dad. Except that he's Mexican.
Which is funny because looking at her you'd never be able to tell one of her parents was Mexican. White as as a....white thing.
White flower.
Sure.
She even gave me some advice about that girl I'm so into! Maybe I can finally approach her and my life will become utlimate at last! Although sometimes that makes me feel like a stalker the way I handle crushes...Jessica says its the same for her so...Yeah, whatever. Yeah, that'd be nice to finally talk to her and get this out of my system. I'm tired of the perpetual stomach aches. I'm getting them from just talking(typing)
about her.
Dammit, stop!
It's not?
Whatever.
A long time ago, when I was in grade school, I had this friend named Jessica. We weren't great friends by any means, we just shared all of the same [nerdy] interests. We shared [nerdy] writing, and she taught me how to roleplay. Our relationships pretty much existed only online. (Though we would dance at school sockhops and pal around)
But all that we had in common really made me feel close to her. We'd stay up all night talking with eachother just about whatever, whether it be our crushes or video games or whatever.
Of course good things don't last forever, we went to different highschools and stopped talking...We'd chat every now and then, but nothing too deep.
Until today! She just randomly called me and we started talking about this and that. Telling eachother how we've been. She's still an aspiring writer, and I told her all about my photography. Her Dad is a proffesional photographer! Who knew? Come to think of it I never knew anything about her Dad. Except that he's Mexican.
Which is funny because looking at her you'd never be able to tell one of her parents was Mexican. White as as a....white thing.
White flower.
Sure.
She even gave me some advice about that girl I'm so into! Maybe I can finally approach her and my life will become utlimate at last! Although sometimes that makes me feel like a stalker the way I handle crushes...Jessica says its the same for her so...Yeah, whatever. Yeah, that'd be nice to finally talk to her and get this out of my system. I'm tired of the perpetual stomach aches. I'm getting them from just talking(typing)
about her.
Dammit, stop!
Saturday, September 18, 2010
The Life ----- An Artist
Everything is good right now. Or at least, it's about to be. I feel like the stars have aligned for me lately and everything is just bright. Nothing is going wrong! N-O-T-H-I-N-G.
At least I don't think so.
When I'm not swooning over a delicate lass, or wasting my time on the internet, I'm taking pictures of stuff and taking it to school to develop by hand. I guess that makes me an artist but I don't feel like it does. I feel like it's just a...hobby, and not real art. I've tried really hard my entire life to be some sort of artist, but my hands have always failed me. Now that I'm doing something artsy...It doesn't feel like. I want to paint.
Or Draw.
Or...Mold pottery.
I'm really bad at that too! I'm taking a ceramics class and school and I totally blow.
Speaking of my Photos...The other day I was putting a grid texture on a picture of some coins...and when I went to develop it the fixer must not have hit part of the paper, because there was like this squiggly...thing, imprinted on it in white. Kind of like a bush, except with just a few long "branch" type things.
And then another one that was just was covered in gray blotches. Ew. I hope I'm not losing my touch...
....And I'll post those illuminations when I get around to printing them. I developed the film though!
At least I don't think so.
When I'm not swooning over a delicate lass, or wasting my time on the internet, I'm taking pictures of stuff and taking it to school to develop by hand. I guess that makes me an artist but I don't feel like it does. I feel like it's just a...hobby, and not real art. I've tried really hard my entire life to be some sort of artist, but my hands have always failed me. Now that I'm doing something artsy...It doesn't feel like. I want to paint.
Or Draw.
Or...Mold pottery.
I'm really bad at that too! I'm taking a ceramics class and school and I totally blow.
Speaking of my Photos...The other day I was putting a grid texture on a picture of some coins...and when I went to develop it the fixer must not have hit part of the paper, because there was like this squiggly...thing, imprinted on it in white. Kind of like a bush, except with just a few long "branch" type things.
And then another one that was just was covered in gray blotches. Ew. I hope I'm not losing my touch...
....And I'll post those illuminations when I get around to printing them. I developed the film though!
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
The Headless Man
I live...Gee, maybe twelve minutes by car away from Evanston. So, this guy was walking his dog and found a headless body in a playground. Completely torn to shreds.
http://www.nbcchicago.com/news/local-beat/Headless-Body-Found-Near-Evanston-Middle-School-102855749.html
Seems really fucking shady to me.
They investiagated the explosion the first time and there wasn't anything there...Then where did that explosion come from? There was only one pipe bomb and the other device. So either the his head somehow exploded AFTER the pipe bomb had already went off and the police investigated, or that WAS the pipebomb that blew him up...But then what was the first explosion?
Whatever, maybe I just don't really understand what happened.
Things like this give me creeps. So much death and gore in my county.
...Augh.
http://www.nbcchicago.com/news/local-beat/Headless-Body-Found-Near-Evanston-Middle-School-102855749.html
Seems really fucking shady to me.
They investiagated the explosion the first time and there wasn't anything there...Then where did that explosion come from? There was only one pipe bomb and the other device. So either the his head somehow exploded AFTER the pipe bomb had already went off and the police investigated, or that WAS the pipebomb that blew him up...But then what was the first explosion?
Whatever, maybe I just don't really understand what happened.
Things like this give me creeps. So much death and gore in my county.
...Augh.
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
The Body Ritual of the Nacirema
http://oak.cats.ohiou.edu/~thompsoc/Body.html
Probably one of my favorite things to read ever. Well, it only really has the effect the first time but...
Wait, did I get another follower!? Worldwide conquest begins, I guess.
Clearly I'm hiding my excitement. Welcome to my world!
I'm not really sick anymore, I just have a small cough every now and then. Y'know, you feel stuff breaking up in your chest and you get that flemmy cough...Yeah, it's kind of like that. Go-Go Amoxacillan.
By the way, the "Droning"(cool word is cool ne?) I heard the other day, I talked to my neighbor about it and he doens't have any idea what it was, I assume it was his fan...y'know, like the roof fan? So he's getting that checked out.
I'm so proactive for a kid still living with his parents.
Oh and that date I mentioned? Totally fell through. But that's okay! Because I am currently breathlessly smitten by this new girl.
I move along so fast.
It's nice.
*wave*
Probably one of my favorite things to read ever. Well, it only really has the effect the first time but...
Wait, did I get another follower!? Worldwide conquest begins, I guess.
Clearly I'm hiding my excitement. Welcome to my world!
I'm not really sick anymore, I just have a small cough every now and then. Y'know, you feel stuff breaking up in your chest and you get that flemmy cough...Yeah, it's kind of like that. Go-Go Amoxacillan.
By the way, the "Droning"(cool word is cool ne?) I heard the other day, I talked to my neighbor about it and he doens't have any idea what it was, I assume it was his fan...y'know, like the roof fan? So he's getting that checked out.
I'm so proactive for a kid still living with his parents.
Oh and that date I mentioned? Totally fell through. But that's okay! Because I am currently breathlessly smitten by this new girl.
I move along so fast.
It's nice.
*wave*
Thursday, September 9, 2010
The Droning
I'm getting sick. Well, I've been sick. "Getting" really...That's pretty much gone. It must be strep or something, I've been coughing for the last few day and spitting up that horrible...Yeah, you get that picture. Hopefully I'll be healthy enough for saturday (date! YEAH!!) but I'm sure I'll be fine by then. I've got some pills that will hopefully work some magic.
That in mind, getting to sleep is difficult...Y'know, runny nose, soar, dry throat (No matter how much water I drink, it never gets moist!!) pretty impossible, yeah? Well, it was made even worse by this horrible droning noise that was ringing all night, just outside my window. I'm thinking it was the fan on my neighbors roof but I really have no idea. It just went on and on and on and it was just...so terrible. I shut all of my windows but it was still hard on my ears...After a while it honestly started sounding like some sort of robot-alien screaming for help. But that was just my looming insanity, so whatever!
See, I'm keeping you updated on me! BLOG!
YEAH!!!
That in mind, getting to sleep is difficult...Y'know, runny nose, soar, dry throat (No matter how much water I drink, it never gets moist!!) pretty impossible, yeah? Well, it was made even worse by this horrible droning noise that was ringing all night, just outside my window. I'm thinking it was the fan on my neighbors roof but I really have no idea. It just went on and on and on and it was just...so terrible. I shut all of my windows but it was still hard on my ears...After a while it honestly started sounding like some sort of robot-alien screaming for help. But that was just my looming insanity, so whatever!
See, I'm keeping you updated on me! BLOG!
YEAH!!!
Sunday, September 5, 2010
No Exit
So I re-read "No Exit" the other day. Have you heard of it, Blogosphere (Shannon)? It probably the most entertaining play I've ever read. One day, I wish to see it performed!
...I'm sure I could find it on the internet. ...Doesn't count though.
I'm trying to think of interesting things to write about, but not much has been going on...I don't have too many friends to go on wild adventures with, you know? The only thing interesting about me is my photography, I guess...(I'll post those illuminations whenever I'm finished!!!)
Speaking of, I'm always so tired ...It must be the...darkess, of the dark room. I've been constantly falling asleep in there for the past three weeks! Whenever I sit down while the photo is developing, everything just goes black and I'm snoozing.
What do you think? Monster? Red Bull? Five Hour Energy...?
More sleep?
...I'm sure I could find it on the internet. ...Doesn't count though.
I'm trying to think of interesting things to write about, but not much has been going on...I don't have too many friends to go on wild adventures with, you know? The only thing interesting about me is my photography, I guess...(I'll post those illuminations whenever I'm finished!!!)
Speaking of, I'm always so tired ...It must be the...darkess, of the dark room. I've been constantly falling asleep in there for the past three weeks! Whenever I sit down while the photo is developing, everything just goes black and I'm snoozing.
What do you think? Monster? Red Bull? Five Hour Energy...?
More sleep?
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