Tuesday, October 26, 2010


I woke up today and got ready to go to music lessons.

It's tuesday.

I don't remember anything since going to sleep Friday night. I woke up with cuts all over my left arm and my oft-used camera was completely smashed.

I should've kept up with my journal and things.

I took the roll of film to school today and immediately developed it. All of the negatives were totally foggy (I remembered the lightblocker this time)except for one, a picture of some dirt or something. I went to print it anyway, but when I opened up my container of photopaper, a small slip of it fell out. It looked like the size of the paper we use for the pinhole camera (which I've never used before and have NO CLUE how to do so)

So I developed the print and what I got is...Well, I'll post it later. I don't feel like bothering with my scanner right now. That's not what bothers me though. What bothers me are these cuts.

Have I been hurting myself? That's the only thing that could've happened, I think. All of the cuts are about the different distances apart and are pretty thin slashes across. I've been pretty down lately, but I'm not suicidal.
Did something bad happen this weekend? I don't want to tell my Parents I forgot again...I don't want to tell anyone but you guys. I don't want people worrying about me and submitting me to more stupid tests.

Worst of all, my sweet, dear camera is completely busted.

I just don't know what to do with myself.

1 comment:

  1. Dude! you dont even remember the Skype Chat we had yesterday? Get on Skype ASAP, I need to talk to you.